My oldest daughter came home after being in Afghanistan for a year. I only saw her for a couple of hours at her "Welcome Home Party" her dad had for her. Talking to her was awkward. A couple of weeks later I found out that her and her "fiance" were already married. I have been having nightmares in re to what has become of our mother/daughter relationship.
My middle daughter is back on track again. She is so hard on herself. I was so worried about her for a moment and wasnt sure what to do. Thank God, she pulled herself out of her depression and got back on track again.
My youngest daughter now lives with me. I had no idea how much she is like me! Same temperment. I worry about her. But I have faith in her that she will get through this time of her life and continue to move forward.
As for my son. He is 9 yrs old. He is Autistic. He is in a special needs class for children like him. I am awed at what he is learning to do this year. Reading, writing, math for starters. I am so very proud of him.
As for myself, I am still dealing with personal issues. Trying to work through them and make better choices. I still am a big advocator for pediatric cancer.
I guess thats it for now.
Whenever I feel down and out, or feel that life isnt fair. I go to caringbridge.org and read updates on on the children that I am following and praying for. Immediately I realize that I have alot to be thankful for. At the top of my list of things I am thankful for are my kids health and my health. How many of us take our health for granted? How many of us "whine" about petty ailments. Imagine everyday being in excruiciating pain, nausea/throwing up, no energy to get up, and that is just a few of the hundreds of symptoms, problems that children with cancer deal with 24 hours day/ 7 days a week. My heart goes out to Ellie who is 8 years old. Ellie has Rhabdomyosarcoma. She has been fighting this horrible monster since July 2, 2008. Having to endure the most harshest chemo that makes her horribly sick. And even with the nasty chemo and all that Ellie has had to deal with due to the chemo, her cancer hasnt gone away like it is suppose to. Instead it has come back twice with a...
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