Sarahs blog

My oldest daughter came home after being in Afghanistan for a year. I only saw her for a couple of hours at her "Welcome Home Party" her dad had for her. Talking to her was awkward. A couple of weeks later I found out that her and her "fiance" were already married. I have been having nightmares in re to what has become of our mother/daughter relationship. My middle daughter is back on track again. She is so hard on herself. I was so worried about her for a moment and wasnt sure what to do. Thank God, she pulled herself out of her depression and got back on track again. My youngest daughter now lives with me. I had no idea how much she is like me! Same temperment. I worry about her. But I have faith in her that she will get through this time of her life and continue to move forward. As for my son. He is 9 yrs old. He is Autistic. He is in a special needs class for children like him. I am awed at what he is learning to do this year. Reading, writing, math for starter...

After a year being stationed in Korea, my oldest daughter came home to visit. I got to have her at home for a week. My baby is definately all grown up. Im so proud of the woman she has become. I treasured every moment that she was here. Her brother Andrew was estatic to see her. She left to go visit with her dad and my 2 other daughters for a week and then was going to Texas where she is stationed for the next few months. I will be blessed to see her along with my other 2 girls in July for my brothers wedding for 3 days. Then after that Brittany will finish her remainder time in Afghanistan. I love you Brittany and already miss you so much.

I turned 41 yesterday. I had a great day. My mom took me out to breakfast. Then I went and got some new outfits with a giftcard my brother gave me. The day actually helped revive me and feel like there is hope. I am hoping and believing that the year ahead is going to be different than the past few years and that my kids and I will be blessed and things will change for me. Even though I turned 41, I feel like I turned 31! Thanks to my family and kids for making my birthday a special day.

My oldest daughter who is in the Army has been stationed in korea for the past year. Her tour in Korea is ending in 2 weeks and she is coming home to visit before her next tour of duty. Gosh, cant wait to see her. I know that while she will be the same Brittany I know she will be also different as she has grown up while being gone. Being struggling really bad lately with depression and lonliness. I hope that someday I will be able to wake up and enjoy getting up. I am blessed to have 4 healthy beautiful children and am so blessed and thankful.

Whenever I feel down and out, or feel that life isnt fair. I go to caringbridge.org and read updates on on the children that I am following and praying for. Immediately I realize that I have alot to be thankful for. At the top of my list of things I am thankful for are my kids health and my health. How many of us take our health for granted? How many of us "whine" about petty ailments. Imagine everyday being in excruiciating pain, nausea/throwing up, no energy to get up, and that is just a few of the hundreds of symptoms, problems that children with cancer deal with 24 hours day/ 7 days a week.  My heart goes out to Ellie who is 8 years old. Ellie has Rhabdomyosarcoma. She has been fighting this horrible monster since July 2, 2008. Having to endure the most harshest chemo that makes her horribly sick. And even with the nasty chemo and all that Ellie has had to deal with due to the chemo, her cancer hasnt gone away like it is suppose to. Instead it has come back twice with a...

Today Heaven recieved another angel, Olivia Culpepper. Tragically everyday theres a child (one to many) that has lost their battle here on earth with cancer. It seems that I am always signing in another guestbook giving my condolences to the parents and siblings of these angels.  Today however was a little different. Olivia had overcome the most worst scenarios possible as well as coming close to death numerous times after being diagnosed with Acute Monocytic Leukemia (FAB M5b). For tbe first time since Olivias diagnosis (9/11/06), the past few months Olivia spent at home not in the hospital where she usually is most of the time. Olivia was slowly getting better. Than with no warning Olivia ended up in the hospital a few weeks ago and progressively got worse and worse. Having her mom witness such terrible things happening to her body and Olivia not being concious.  What does it take to get people to acknowledge pediatric cancer? Even though these kids are not mine and I hav...