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Life in general

The beginning of 2009 has already bought alot of grief. Starting off with my sons aunt (dads sister), who was killed almost 3 weeks ago by a 19 yr old neighbor. My ex and I rarely ever talk. So I was surprised when I got a phone call from him the night it happened. I woke to my ex crying into the phone saying his sister had been ran over by a car. She was alive for 15 minutes in her husbands arms crying because she was scared. I never had the chance to really get to know her but after go to her memorial service and reading the guest book for her. I saw how beautiful of a person she was. What makes it so hard to accept her death is that it didnt have to happen.

I have a real compassion for kids with cancer. I have a group of friends on myspace that are kids fighting cancer. I also have a group of caringbridge profiles that I subscribed too. All kids that I pray for on a regular basis. One particular little girl that I have been praying for for the past 2-3 yrs past away yesterday. She didnt pass away from the actual disease, Neuroblastoma, but from the result of being given contaminated platelets a week ago. She still be here today if she hadnt been given those contaminated platelets.

And a precious little angel named Tuesday who past away January 30. I came across her story from a caringbridge page. I was so saddened when I heard of her passing.

We cant take life for granted. We have to live each day as if it were our last.

My oldest daughter Brittany just turned 18 last november. She just enlisted recently into the Army. And will be leaving for basic training on May 28. It was quite a shock for me when she informed me of this about 1 1/2 month ago. It seems as if it was just yesterday that I bought her home from the hospital. And while I want to protect her from all the bad things out there in the world, I know that I cant hold her back as she starts the beginning to her life. I can only support her and pray for her.

With all the death that surrounded me in just the past month, I feel that I need to tell those around me that they cant take life for granted. That they cant hold a grudge with a loved one. Because in one second it can be all over.

For Jessica Rose and Tuesday Fiona, you will never be forgotten. Your memories will live on forever. While we are saddened that you are no longer here with us. We are happy that you are no longer suffering and are able to live life like a child should.

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